[ She shrugs, because she's had variations of this discussions with plenty of others now. The answer is still the same. Pandora - is a shock. It's where she comes from, she feels nothing really anymore when she looks at violence. Because one disgusting creature was nothing to the broil of madness that Pandora was, and she tries to - keep it away, but there's something there. Bacchanalias of blood letting. The screaming, shrieking, the rend of skin from flesh. The grate of teeth against bone. To gorge and be gorged upon. Darwin at his worst, in a cacophonous snarl of sounds that could be animal, could be human. Tannis's mad recordings ( 'I thought on my research as the beast ate the last of my research team that had thrown himself over me to protect me.' )
But still - it gives her pause in each time, because she had craved that freedom of anarchistic violence, compared what made her truly grateful, and what, just what, did that make her? When there were people here that cringed so heavily from that violence she had once taken as just how things were? They all seemed to miss their homes in varying degrees.
She opts for the simpler answer, not quite lie, not quite truth. The violence isn't what turns her stomach. She'd killed a guard, and quite probably, that secret was going to stay with her so far as she didn't really care enough to bring it up to anyone. Because what was he to turning off the oxygen to the whole of a moon base with a flick of a thought for getting in her way when she decided it was important? ]
Better, much, better here. I didn't... I didn't think my life could ever be like this. I have so much to be thankful for.
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But still - it gives her pause in each time, because she had craved that freedom of anarchistic violence, compared what made her truly grateful, and what, just what, did that make her? When there were people here that cringed so heavily from that violence she had once taken as just how things were? They all seemed to miss their homes in varying degrees.
She opts for the simpler answer, not quite lie, not quite truth. The violence isn't what turns her stomach. She'd killed a guard, and quite probably, that secret was going to stay with her so far as she didn't really care enough to bring it up to anyone. Because what was he to turning off the oxygen to the whole of a moon base with a flick of a thought for getting in her way when she decided it was important? ]
Better, much, better here. I didn't... I didn't think my life could ever be like this. I have so much to be thankful for.