It does matter. [Lexa will never understand all that Bellamy's done to bring him to this point, but she will know this: how he feels right now is crippling him. Being caught up in thoughts that blur together these notions will only make things more difficult down the line. She sees above all else that he has to differentiate between them, or he'll drown in the process. It will prove impossible to keep someone alive who has been severed from everything that matters most. That's a life she refuses to accept.]
The day we found my people dead on that field, I had intended to make Clarke my prisoner. [Despite her promises.] I was angry. [Emotional. A point she regrets but can't change.] Despite everything, she swore that she could get through to you. That you would see the error of your ways. She believed in you. You proved her wrong. You dug your heels, and Clarke had to come back and beg for me to show a different side. [It's one that she still struggles with, which is apparent here. Her restraint is shown every day, even though Lexa has a feeling that Bellamy's the only one aware of it.]
What you did when everyone failed in there was a matter of poor planning. Things will change. I intend to change them. But to me, you are making these things one and the same. When you killed my people beside Pike, you acted with purpose. Here, you didn't. But sitting here, it feels the same to me. Why is that?
[Clarke had accused her of repressing her emotions, but when she looks at Bellamy, she wonders if this is really any better. If his emotions blind him so that he can't make clear, reasoned decisions, how is that any better?]
You will never be the man Clarke believed you could be if you don't work through this.
[It's clear to her that he attempted to deflected toward the mission itself.
But Lexa has already made up a plan for how to handle things in the future. Here, she's quick and decisive. With him, she wonders if it will be necessary to do the same. If this is the leadership hand he requires, then she'll offer it.]
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The day we found my people dead on that field, I had intended to make Clarke my prisoner. [Despite her promises.] I was angry. [Emotional. A point she regrets but can't change.] Despite everything, she swore that she could get through to you. That you would see the error of your ways. She believed in you. You proved her wrong. You dug your heels, and Clarke had to come back and beg for me to show a different side. [It's one that she still struggles with, which is apparent here. Her restraint is shown every day, even though Lexa has a feeling that Bellamy's the only one aware of it.]
What you did when everyone failed in there was a matter of poor planning. Things will change. I intend to change them. But to me, you are making these things one and the same. When you killed my people beside Pike, you acted with purpose. Here, you didn't. But sitting here, it feels the same to me. Why is that?
[Clarke had accused her of repressing her emotions, but when she looks at Bellamy, she wonders if this is really any better. If his emotions blind him so that he can't make clear, reasoned decisions, how is that any better?]
You will never be the man Clarke believed you could be if you don't work through this.
[It's clear to her that he attempted to deflected toward the mission itself.
But Lexa has already made up a plan for how to handle things in the future. Here, she's quick and decisive. With him, she wonders if it will be necessary to do the same. If this is the leadership hand he requires, then she'll offer it.]