[ This is potentially Lexa's way of offering reassurance, explaining while reaffirming all the things Bellamy knows Octavia believes of Indra as well. He leans forward, rubbing a hand over his face. Indra will support Clarke. The others will follow. She'll hold all the people left on their world together. It's a given, as far as Bellamy's concerned. All that he had done to unite their people had been a flash in the pan. Clarke was substantial. She wouldn't waver this time. ]
I should be there.
[ But he won't be. Bellamy will never be able to go back, and he'll never stand at Clarke's side again. All Carata's assurances and urging for him to sever those ties crumple when Bellamy stacks the cost of his presence in this world against his absence from his home. ]
I can't tell if I made the right choice anymore.
[ About anything. Ever.
But he thinks in this case, when speaking about this specific thing, Lexa can sympathize. They've left their people. In the moment, it had felt like the only possible thing to do. But now, he wonders if he should have thought of something else, come up with a solution that didn't remove himself from the equation entirely. ]
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I should be there.
[ But he won't be. Bellamy will never be able to go back, and he'll never stand at Clarke's side again. All Carata's assurances and urging for him to sever those ties crumple when Bellamy stacks the cost of his presence in this world against his absence from his home. ]
I can't tell if I made the right choice anymore.
[ About anything. Ever.
But he thinks in this case, when speaking about this specific thing, Lexa can sympathize. They've left their people. In the moment, it had felt like the only possible thing to do. But now, he wonders if he should have thought of something else, come up with a solution that didn't remove himself from the equation entirely. ]