[Part of Bucky recognizes the futility of running, how back home two years of peace still ended in dozens of deaths. Nothing he can ever do will shake HYDRA's hold on him. He continues wiping the dust away from the faces on the loose papers, the faces he should never ever forget.
He pauses, shoulders stiffening when Sam speaks those final few words. It's true, Bucky knows, that Sam won't pry if he can help it, but this is different. Sam seems to think some destruction of property is okay--- no one got hurt--- but what if one of their other broodmates came instead of Sam? What if Bucky killed them?
Hell, what if Bucky killed Sam, one of the few people who worked to understand him?
That's not okay.
And neither is Bucky, the weapon, the soldier. He can paint up grand illusions of choice, but each of them comes crashing down in the face of the inevitable. He can't choose to not be a ticking time bomb.
Running is the only option.
He lets out a long exhale through his nose as he looks down at the faces staring up at him from the dusty papers. He didn't give them a choice; he killed them no matter their begging and pleading, no matter how many children waited at home.]
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He pauses, shoulders stiffening when Sam speaks those final few words. It's true, Bucky knows, that Sam won't pry if he can help it, but this is different. Sam seems to think some destruction of property is okay--- no one got hurt--- but what if one of their other broodmates came instead of Sam? What if Bucky killed them?
Hell, what if Bucky killed Sam, one of the few people who worked to understand him?
That's not okay.
And neither is Bucky, the weapon, the soldier. He can paint up grand illusions of choice, but each of them comes crashing down in the face of the inevitable. He can't choose to not be a ticking time bomb.
Running is the only option.
He lets out a long exhale through his nose as he looks down at the faces staring up at him from the dusty papers. He didn't give them a choice; he killed them no matter their begging and pleading, no matter how many children waited at home.]