[Breathe echoes through. Breathe and he latches onto it. As if letting go means he's going to drown. Means dragging everyone else with him. And he can't do that. He can't be the one to hurt them all. He has to stay in control.]
[Allura's face composed and accepting and her voice telling him to be that way, to stay that way. But the doors are closing but he's being dragged off but nothing he can do.]
[Why is there never anything he can do?]
If... not me then -- [If not him or Clint or Bellamy or] -- who else?
[He's the leader. He's the one who should be held accountable, shouldn't he? The leader, the head, the pilot. The strongest person I know, the one who always said you can do this.]
[He can feel the counter dent. But can't make his fingers release.]
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[Allura's face composed and accepting and her voice telling him to be that way, to stay that way. But the doors are closing but he's being dragged off but nothing he can do.]
[Why is there never anything he can do?]
If... not me then -- [If not him or Clint or Bellamy or] -- who else?
[He's the leader. He's the one who should be held accountable, shouldn't he? The leader, the head, the pilot. The strongest person I know, the one who always said you can do this.]
[He can feel the counter dent. But can't make his fingers release.]