[ It's so strange to feel him moving away from her mentally, emotionally, but staying right there physically. Becoming a vampire has changed her in so many ways, but the symbiote... She has no frame of reference to how to deal with and process any of this, but while her broodmate's mind is harsh and unwelcome territory, Damon's is the opposite, and part of her is sad to lose that added closeness.
Because he's her friend. Because he's the only one she knows here. Because... while she'd made a choice that night on the road, just a few nights ago... No, no, she can't even begin to think about that. It's too much, she needs to focus on this moment and what lies ahead. ]
I'm okay. [ It's a lie, she's very much not okay, but she's not gasping in pain from the feedback from Lakshmi anymore, so that's something. ]
I know you didn't mean to, Damon. I know you'd never hurt me -- it's the only thing I'm certain about here. [ And she believes it with everything she is, because despite the hiccups along the way, Damon has always tried to protect her, to keep her alive and safe so she could live the life she wanted. The life everyone thought she deserved. The life she can't have now. ]
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Because he's her friend. Because he's the only one she knows here. Because... while she'd made a choice that night on the road, just a few nights ago... No, no, she can't even begin to think about that. It's too much, she needs to focus on this moment and what lies ahead. ]
I'm okay. [ It's a lie, she's very much not okay, but she's not gasping in pain from the feedback from Lakshmi anymore, so that's something. ]
I know you didn't mean to, Damon. I know you'd never hurt me -- it's the only thing I'm certain about here. [ And she believes it with everything she is, because despite the hiccups along the way, Damon has always tried to protect her, to keep her alive and safe so she could live the life she wanted. The life everyone thought she deserved. The life she can't have now. ]