[ Honestly, Elena's not sure she'll ever be okay again. How can she be after the past week? What will it matter if Damon keeps her safe if she hates everything about her existence now? What if she never sees Jeremy again, or Stefan, or Bonnie, Caroline, Matt... It would hurt to lose her friends forever, but Jeremy and Stefan--
She has to shove all of that back down, into the dark corners of her mind where she's become terrified of who she'll lose next. It's unfair that she's always the one to survive, to be left behind to be swallowed up by grief. To drown in it like she'd drowned in the river. And even when she'd been ready to die, to finally be at peace and leave all of this behind, something had pulled her back. It isn't fair. ]
How am I supposed to do that? [ It's quiet and as broken as she feels, and the tears are in her eyes before she realizes it. ] How am I supposed to live like this, Damon?
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She has to shove all of that back down, into the dark corners of her mind where she's become terrified of who she'll lose next. It's unfair that she's always the one to survive, to be left behind to be swallowed up by grief. To drown in it like she'd drowned in the river. And even when she'd been ready to die, to finally be at peace and leave all of this behind, something had pulled her back. It isn't fair. ]
How am I supposed to do that? [ It's quiet and as broken as she feels, and the tears are in her eyes before she realizes it. ] How am I supposed to live like this, Damon?