[ there is a time for everything, and kaji finds himself out of turn, saying the worst possible thing at the worst possible time. but i don't want to die simply isn't good enough. it isn't good enough for her, because it wasn't good enough for him. that's as much a plan as the commander was a father. it won't get her anywhere, if kaji's experiences are any judge, and kaji only has himself in way of reference. when he was her age, he didn't want to die. he also wasn't supposed to be alive, and lived in despite of it. fifteen years and counting and finally, he realizes, he'd made a huge mistake.
what kaji doesn't yet realize, what he can't realize, is that asuka deserved none of this. it is different, when misato says she doesn't want to die, but because kaji sees her as a survivor who's earned her right to be one, because he cannot help but see her as anything else. asuka was young, young like he was. asuka was scared, scared like he was. these days he can only see himself, dirtied and terrified, in children. he takes her by the shoulders to force her his gaze. ]
Are you going to forget about what happened to you? Are you going to avoid anything that reminds you of piloting, or EVA? Avoid me? Change your name, like I did? Are you ok with being another child soldier, Asuka?
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[ there is a time for everything, and kaji finds himself out of turn, saying the worst possible thing at the worst possible time. but i don't want to die simply isn't good enough. it isn't good enough for her, because it wasn't good enough for him. that's as much a plan as the commander was a father. it won't get her anywhere, if kaji's experiences are any judge, and kaji only has himself in way of reference. when he was her age, he didn't want to die. he also wasn't supposed to be alive, and lived in despite of it. fifteen years and counting and finally, he realizes, he'd made a huge mistake.
what kaji doesn't yet realize, what he can't realize, is that asuka deserved none of this. it is different, when misato says she doesn't want to die, but because kaji sees her as a survivor who's earned her right to be one, because he cannot help but see her as anything else. asuka was young, young like he was. asuka was scared, scared like he was. these days he can only see himself, dirtied and terrified, in children. he takes her by the shoulders to force her his gaze. ]
Are you going to forget about what happened to you? Are you going to avoid anything that reminds you of piloting, or EVA? Avoid me? Change your name, like I did? Are you ok with being another child soldier, Asuka?