(She will. We never had the opportunity to be close. Nothing will stop that now.) [Those brief, fleeting minutes back in Polis had been nothing compared to what they both wanted. Their reunion here had been a reminder of that fact, too desperate to be close to one another to allow anything to sink in. But she recalls Clarke's tears and Clarke's guilt; she recalls the sound of Titus' voice in Clarke's head, reminding her that it was her fault that Lexa had died. Even if Lexa doesn't agree (she doesn't; she can't), she knows it'll take more than words to make that ache go away.
All she can do now is promise to live. It's the least she can manage and the least she can do knowing about the long road ahead.]
(The problem is that you aren't here for my sake or Clarke's. Or not only that.) [Lexa knows that Bellamy's selfishness is a fleeting thing, at least by now. He might not admit it, but she's also not naive enough to believe that he'd come to her without some motivation aligned with himself. She knows that there's a part of him that will be apparent to Clarke. It's possible that it's a sentiment that will be shared in turn, but the arrival of Lexa may make that more difficult to comprehend.]
(Having her back in your life will be difficult, Bellamy. You care for her.)
[Lexa considers cutting off any defenses to that by heading them off at the start. But she chooses not to; maybe he won't bother to conceal the truth from her.]
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All she can do now is promise to live. It's the least she can manage and the least she can do knowing about the long road ahead.]
( The problem is that you aren't here for my sake or Clarke's. Or not only that. ) [Lexa knows that Bellamy's selfishness is a fleeting thing, at least by now. He might not admit it, but she's also not naive enough to believe that he'd come to her without some motivation aligned with himself. She knows that there's a part of him that will be apparent to Clarke. It's possible that it's a sentiment that will be shared in turn, but the arrival of Lexa may make that more difficult to comprehend.]
( Having her back in your life will be difficult, Bellamy. You care for her. )
[Lexa considers cutting off any defenses to that by heading them off at the start. But she chooses not to; maybe he won't bother to conceal the truth from her.]