[ Asuka's mind feels like it goes a bit rigid at that. She remembers sitting in a bathtub, waiting to die. She hadn't slit her wrists or used a noose (like her mother) or tried to jump off of a building. But she'd been trying to kill herself just as dead. No food, no water, exposure. Just let herself die. Synch rate: zero. And then they'd found her and dragged her back and put her in a hospital bed with a sedative and an IV.
And then she'd wanted to live when it had been too late. ]
cw: more mention of suicide
And then she'd wanted to live when it had been too late. ]
( ...I tried. Once. )
[ It's a very quiet admission. ]