[ there was nothing to gain and nothing to lose from a little check-up, he'd told himself. anything less would be callous of him, he'd told himself. ikari's arrival had surely psyched her for the worse, he'd told himself. the ball was in her court to dismiss him at any time, he'd told himself.
she was best left alone, his better sense had replied. the robbers who'd ransacked her life were those very presumptions of adults who thought they knew better, his better sense had replied. a group to which he belonged, his better sense had replied. after this, he was going to hell, his better sense had replied.
and yet here he stands, only moments away from having a conversation with asuka soryu, for reasons as yet unknown. he catches her at the camp enclosure. it is not so much her height but her posture, spine perpendicular to the ground, those stubborn shoulders, that tip him off. ]
You've been really putting yourself out there, Asuka. [ so this is how a young girl will interpret his challenge, forget or die already. it is no marked departure from her coping mechanisms from before. any changes to her tried and untrue routine were perfunctory, cosmetic alterations that didn't even pretend to interrogate the dissatisfaction in her heart. kaji doesn't understand. it wasn't as if she had a lover that kept her from reprieve. her life was truly her own, no strings attached, her own to consummate.
he guesses, that's part of the problem. ] How's it finding you?
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she was best left alone, his better sense had replied. the robbers who'd ransacked her life were those very presumptions of adults who thought they knew better, his better sense had replied. a group to which he belonged, his better sense had replied. after this, he was going to hell, his better sense had replied.
and yet here he stands, only moments away from having a conversation with asuka soryu, for reasons as yet unknown. he catches her at the camp enclosure. it is not so much her height but her posture, spine perpendicular to the ground, those stubborn shoulders, that tip him off. ]
You've been really putting yourself out there, Asuka. [ so this is how a young girl will interpret his challenge, forget or die already. it is no marked departure from her coping mechanisms from before. any changes to her tried and untrue routine were perfunctory, cosmetic alterations that didn't even pretend to interrogate the dissatisfaction in her heart. kaji doesn't understand. it wasn't as if she had a lover that kept her from reprieve. her life was truly her own, no strings attached, her own to consummate.
he guesses, that's part of the problem. ] How's it finding you?