[ He knows when he's being a bother, and right now he's entirely certain he's being a bother. No need to try hiding it when they are so connected, but he will take what Bellamy says over what Bellamy feels for old time's sake. For keeping up appearances and fretting the old way, before they were all hooked at the brainstem.
Gildor twists the staff in his hands anxiously, pushing the end of it into the dusty earth, grounding himself. ]
Not always. Though I'll admit it's worse now, being...
[ A dark tendril of thought reaches out and connects with Bellamy again, though it delivers only two words- ]
(Like this.)
[ The other hosts don't hold themselves back with alcohol the way he has to. They don't need to, and he doesn't wish them to stop themselves for his sake, but it does make resisting so much harder for him. ]
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Gildor twists the staff in his hands anxiously, pushing the end of it into the dusty earth, grounding himself. ]
Not always. Though I'll admit it's worse now, being...
[ A dark tendril of thought reaches out and connects with Bellamy again, though it delivers only two words- ]
(Like this.)
[ The other hosts don't hold themselves back with alcohol the way he has to. They don't need to, and he doesn't wish them to stop themselves for his sake, but it does make resisting so much harder for him. ]