[ It's an easy trap to fall into, to be fair. Especially for a girl who's still young, who's still struggling with her own sense of worth and self-identity. Who has her share of righteous anger. Why shouldn't she be forced to apologize if her crimes are laid bare? Isn't that how things are supposed to work?
Kaji's words aren't exactly what she wants to hear, but it's the same thing she's heard from other people. It's the same thing she should be learning. But moving on is never easy, especially when the unknown is so terrifying. What happens if she lets go? Without that part of her to hold onto, will she lose the footing she's struggled to scrape out for herself here?
Does she prefer the pain she knows and can rely on to an uncertain future? ]
That's not fair.
[ She says that like life was ever fair. She knows it isn't and never will be, but a part of her still wants to believe in the idea that if she does the right things, says the right words, she'll unlock the code that will give her some sort of closure.
She can feel the pain that rolls off of him when they talk about Misato. And she has some of her own to give back. There's a twinge of sympathy for him underneath her own tangled mess of emotions. She does care about him. Even if she does tend to be a selfish girl. ]
I mean-
[ She glances away, veil shifting and she resists the urge to draw a hand across her eyes. ]
I guess I'll deal with it. I don't really have a choice, huh?
[ But the pain is there. The hurt. But maybe she will stop. Should stop. ]
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Kaji's words aren't exactly what she wants to hear, but it's the same thing she's heard from other people. It's the same thing she should be learning. But moving on is never easy, especially when the unknown is so terrifying. What happens if she lets go? Without that part of her to hold onto, will she lose the footing she's struggled to scrape out for herself here?
Does she prefer the pain she knows and can rely on to an uncertain future? ]
That's not fair.
[ She says that like life was ever fair. She knows it isn't and never will be, but a part of her still wants to believe in the idea that if she does the right things, says the right words, she'll unlock the code that will give her some sort of closure.
She can feel the pain that rolls off of him when they talk about Misato. And she has some of her own to give back. There's a twinge of sympathy for him underneath her own tangled mess of emotions. She does care about him. Even if she does tend to be a selfish girl. ]
I mean-
[ She glances away, veil shifting and she resists the urge to draw a hand across her eyes. ]
I guess I'll deal with it. I don't really have a choice, huh?
[ But the pain is there. The hurt. But maybe she will stop. Should stop. ]