[ Loving herself as she is. The very idea of it brings up a mountain of things she's been debating and agonizing over the past few days, lobbing possibilities around like a ball on a court. Because it's so hard to love herself like this when she isn't sure that anyone else will.
What about Jeremy? Will he still see her as his big sister, or will she be just another vampire causing problems for everyone in Mystic Falls? And Bonnie, who took so long to accept Caroline? Will Care expect her to have just as much control over her vampire side, and will she be disappointed with Elena doesn't? And Stefan... Will he still be able to love her when she's become something he hates? He'd supported her through her transition, but that had been because otherwise she would have died - he hasn't seen her since it finished. What if he doesn't accept who she is now, the way Damon--
Her spiral of thoughts grinds to a halt as Gildor's words register and she props herself up on an elbow, her expression turning to one of shocked protestation that is conveyed through their connection. ]
I'm not in love with Damon!
[ And maybe that protest is a little too strong... ]
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What about Jeremy? Will he still see her as his big sister, or will she be just another vampire causing problems for everyone in Mystic Falls? And Bonnie, who took so long to accept Caroline? Will Care expect her to have just as much control over her vampire side, and will she be disappointed with Elena doesn't? And Stefan... Will he still be able to love her when she's become something he hates? He'd supported her through her transition, but that had been because otherwise she would have died - he hasn't seen her since it finished. What if he doesn't accept who she is now, the way Damon--
Her spiral of thoughts grinds to a halt as Gildor's words register and she props herself up on an elbow, her expression turning to one of shocked protestation that is conveyed through their connection. ]
I'm not in love with Damon!
[ And maybe that protest is a little too strong... ]