Sam’d always believed he would, he realizes, always believed that Bucky would try. Bucky is a constant in his life, has been since he got back into things, and it’s probably only because he’s drunk that he ruminates on that, on what he’s told Bucky before - that Bucky always comes back, that Sam can count on him.
Even when he’s not in a state to be able to be there for Bucky the way he should be, the way he wants to be, but it’s - he’s human, he reminds himself.
There’s a part of him that wants to protest, that he’s not so bad off that he can’t pull his own weight - he’d never let himself get so drunk on a mission that he couldn’t protect himself or the others if he needed to, and he was pararescue, damn it, he’s trekked through worse in worse shape - but he doesn’t. Bucky’s trying to take care of him, to protect him even though he’s angry and that - he’s not used to that, it continues to catch him by surprise.
He lets Bucky’s hand go, watches him shoulder the pack before he’s reaching out again. His urge to leave grows, and he’s got no idea if it’s just that he and Bucky are feeding off each other or not but he doesn’t care, right now. He wants to go somewhere he doesn’t have to worry about shielding, about keeping the rest of the Nest out, where he and Bucky can just - be inside each other’s heads for a while.
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Sam’d always believed he would, he realizes, always believed that Bucky would try. Bucky is a constant in his life, has been since he got back into things, and it’s probably only because he’s drunk that he ruminates on that, on what he’s told Bucky before - that Bucky always comes back, that Sam can count on him.
Even when he’s not in a state to be able to be there for Bucky the way he should be, the way he wants to be, but it’s - he’s human, he reminds himself.
There’s a part of him that wants to protest, that he’s not so bad off that he can’t pull his own weight - he’d never let himself get so drunk on a mission that he couldn’t protect himself or the others if he needed to, and he was pararescue, damn it, he’s trekked through worse in worse shape - but he doesn’t. Bucky’s trying to take care of him, to protect him even though he’s angry and that - he’s not used to that, it continues to catch him by surprise.
He lets Bucky’s hand go, watches him shoulder the pack before he’s reaching out again. His urge to leave grows, and he’s got no idea if it’s just that he and Bucky are feeding off each other or not but he doesn’t care, right now. He wants to go somewhere he doesn’t have to worry about shielding, about keeping the rest of the Nest out, where he and Bucky can just - be inside each other’s heads for a while.
He’s moving as soon as Bucky’s ready. ]