[His hands scrub over his face. Trying to sort it all through. What his reaction is, what's Bucky's. What's leftover garbage from the symbiote power. What is just pure grief and gut reaction he shouldn't be having. He definitely shouldn't be taking it out on Bellamy.]
[But the feelings are there. They exist. The feelings of you trusted them, of just an experiment to them, flicker and bounce though his head with the slashes of lightning. He knows how Lavellan ... how it happened. And he needs to pull himself together before he does something.]
[Bellamy doesn't deserve it.]
[Does he? demands part of him -- the messy, fractured part he can't tell is really him or Bucky or ...]
(I don't --) [Focus. Focus.] (My friend -- Bucky. We have bad experiences. With this.)
[With things like this. Why couldn't it have waited? Didn't they have scanners? On the station?]
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[But the feelings are there. They exist. The feelings of you trusted them, of just an experiment to them, flicker and bounce though his head with the slashes of lightning. He knows how Lavellan ... how it happened. And he needs to pull himself together before he does something.]
[Bellamy doesn't deserve it.]
[Does he? demands part of him -- the messy, fractured part he can't tell is really him or Bucky or ...]
(I don't --) [Focus. Focus.] (My friend -- Bucky. We have bad experiences. With this.)
[With things like this. Why couldn't it have waited? Didn't they have scanners? On the station?]