[ Sam'd joked with Misato that he was getting too old for this, that he was gonna retire and stay on the Station - she'd laughed at him, called him out on that he wasn't ready for that, that it'd been a while before he could be the retiring type - but this mission makes him consider it.
He'd rather be back on the Station, with Bucky and the others he's come to call something like family.
But this is what they've got right now, and all he wants to do is focus on Bucky and let everything else go away. ]
(I'm not okay right now.) [ It's hard to form those words, hard to admit it even over the mental link - but he feels like he needs to, like he needs to acknowledge it. ] (I know better than to try to talk through something like this when I'm not in a good state for it.)
[ His free hand itches to tangle itself in Bucky's hair, but he holds back, swallowing. ] (If you're too mad, if you don't want - that's fine. But I'm tired, sunshine, and right now it kind of feels like the only thing I can make myself care about doing is holding onto you.)
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He'd rather be back on the Station, with Bucky and the others he's come to call something like family.
But this is what they've got right now, and all he wants to do is focus on Bucky and let everything else go away. ]
( I'm not okay right now. ) [ It's hard to form those words, hard to admit it even over the mental link - but he feels like he needs to, like he needs to acknowledge it. ] ( I know better than to try to talk through something like this when I'm not in a good state for it. )
[ His free hand itches to tangle itself in Bucky's hair, but he holds back, swallowing. ] ( If you're too mad, if you don't want - that's fine. But I'm tired, sunshine, and right now it kind of feels like the only thing I can make myself care about doing is holding onto you. )