[ Which is true and isn't true. She doesn't want to rely on others (she knows that), but she also doesn't want to be alone. She hates being alone - but she also hates the idea of needing others. It's a strange paradox, one she hasn't yet worked out for herself. One day, she will. She's not there yet, though. What good were people who left you, anyway? ]
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[ Which is true and isn't true. She doesn't want to rely on others (she knows that), but she also doesn't want to be alone. She hates being alone - but she also hates the idea of needing others. It's a strange paradox, one she hasn't yet worked out for herself. One day, she will. She's not there yet, though. What good were people who left you, anyway? ]
Maybe I don't care about being lonely.