[ For the next moment or so, while the other two exchange words, Sam's thinking over what he'd said. 'No one used the words' and 'last time it happened, i killed people'. It's not difficult to piece together, but he's pulled out of it by this nonsense about leaving or staying or whatever. Gods, these two. ]
Hey, no one's leaving anyone, alright? [ quit that shit. drama queens up in here. so back to what's actually the issue here, and you boyfriends can sort out your feelings later. ]
Trigger words, is what he's talking about. [ He turns to tell Steve, because Bucky already knows what they are, clearly, but Sam makes the effort to glance between both of them while he's explaining. Seeing as Steve's still from a time when not a lot of any of this made sense. ] It's a mental trigger - a set of words, or a specific sound, for me it was a song. Steve, you remember I told, how I didn't know what I was and then one day it was like a flip switched, and I got that memory back? That's what it is. Mine made me remember, his makes him switch to a violent state, and blacks out his memory of it.
I was programmed, but with him - with you, Bucky - it was psychologically conditioned into you, it's a subconscious thing. So you can't stop it any more than you could stop yourself sleep talking. [ so, seriously, this isn't something you can fight by just muscling through it, homie. sam pauses there, though, and frowns. if no one said the words... ] But it wouldn't have started without the trigger words, that's the point of it. It's usually a set of stuff that you'd never accidentally have all together in a conversation. So if no one said it, and no one knows it here...
[ he frown, brows knit. two triggers for the same state, maybe? or an alternate state that's similar? why would you bother, though? ] What happened, right before your memory stops?
[ it's directed to both of them, as Bucky's mind was likely chaotic at the time, but Steve had been witness, at least. ]
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Hey, no one's leaving anyone, alright? [ quit that shit. drama queens up in here. so back to what's actually the issue here, and you boyfriends can sort out your feelings later. ]
Trigger words, is what he's talking about. [ He turns to tell Steve, because Bucky already knows what they are, clearly, but Sam makes the effort to glance between both of them while he's explaining. Seeing as Steve's still from a time when not a lot of any of this made sense. ] It's a mental trigger - a set of words, or a specific sound, for me it was a song. Steve, you remember I told, how I didn't know what I was and then one day it was like a flip switched, and I got that memory back? That's what it is. Mine made me remember, his makes him switch to a violent state, and blacks out his memory of it.
I was programmed, but with him - with you, Bucky - it was psychologically conditioned into you, it's a subconscious thing. So you can't stop it any more than you could stop yourself sleep talking. [ so, seriously, this isn't something you can fight by just muscling through it, homie. sam pauses there, though, and frowns. if no one said the words... ] But it wouldn't have started without the trigger words, that's the point of it. It's usually a set of stuff that you'd never accidentally have all together in a conversation. So if no one said it, and no one knows it here...
[ he frown, brows knit. two triggers for the same state, maybe? or an alternate state that's similar? why would you bother, though? ] What happened, right before your memory stops?
[ it's directed to both of them, as Bucky's mind was likely chaotic at the time, but Steve had been witness, at least. ]