[But enough about him. Because there's something important here. Bakugo needs to get something out. Well, maybe "need" is the wrong word for it. But something's coming. Something to be addressed. Something hot and raw and hurt. He wants to lift a hand, put it on the kid's shoulder.]
[Something cool and metallic against all that hot feeling.]
So every time you try to come to terms with it, it's crushing you back down again? Like thinking about it makes it more real.
And when it's real, you can't do anything but relive it? Can't work it out, you're just...
Stuck?
[Stuck seeing it on loop again and again and again until you couldn't tell what was really happening, anymore? Or just stuck reliving the guilt, seeing the doors close over Allura's face, seeing Lavellan's lifeless body fall, seeing Keya in a puddle of her own blood... thinking, knowing, you could have done more?]
[It was like I was up there just to watch - no I lost Allura - I should have been there - ]
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[But enough about him. Because there's something important here. Bakugo needs to get something out. Well, maybe "need" is the wrong word for it. But something's coming. Something to be addressed. Something hot and raw and hurt. He wants to lift a hand, put it on the kid's shoulder.]
[Something cool and metallic against all that hot feeling.]
So every time you try to come to terms with it, it's crushing you back down again? Like thinking about it makes it more real.
And when it's real, you can't do anything but relive it? Can't work it out, you're just...
Stuck?
[Stuck seeing it on loop again and again and again until you couldn't tell what was really happening, anymore? Or just stuck reliving the guilt, seeing the doors close over Allura's face, seeing Lavellan's lifeless body fall, seeing Keya in a puddle of her own blood... thinking, knowing, you could have done more?]
[It was like I was up there just to watch - no I lost Allura - I should have been there - ]