"If I could have left? We wouldn't be having this conversation, because I wouldn't have come back." Untruth runs through that like spiderweb cracks, but she tries to keep it from him, not interested in giving so much of an inch of compassion for his fear of abandonment. "I got knocked down, but as the song goes, I got up again. You know how long it's been?" She has the sense of a lot of time having passed, maybe just from residual connection to other parts of the Nest.