mental link, day...36? sure.

[headinjuries]

[ Technically, it came up a few days ago, but Sam's been letting something bounce around in his head to see if the possibility gets less troublesome after he sleeps on it. And sleeps on it a couple more times.

or he's just saying it late so the newbies can hear it too, w/e

It's not getting any less freaky. So, out of left field: ]

( So if aliens can hack our emotions, do we...actually know they can't mess with everything else? Memories? Are we actually who we think we are?

What if there is no spoon? )

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[shiro2hero]

(... That's. Really not an idea I ever wanted to have in my head.)

(Thanks.)

[headinjuries]

( If I can't get it out of my head, somebody has to suffer with me. )

[shiro2hero]

(It... Look, it's not really something everyone wants or needs to hear.)

[Because some of them already struggle with Memory Problems as it is.]

[headinjuries]

( I'm pretty sure that applies to most of what we get by being in each others' heads. )

[shiro2hero]

(It...)

(Why would you ask something like that, though? Of all things?)

[headinjuries]

( Pidge brought it up before and it's been bugging me for a few days. )

[shiro2hero]

(Pidge...)

[Oh my god. Why would she bring that up. Of all people.]

(Some of us. Really don't want to imagine that possibility.)

[headinjuries]

( I, uh. Kinda can't stuff it back into the box now, though. )

[shiro2hero]

(Memories. Memories can get lost.)

(You can't... implant them.)

[Right?]

[Hopefully he sounds more confident than he feels, because oh god. Oh god what if it's true. What if it's possible?]

[headinjuries]

( That's not how it went at Pleasant Hill. )

[ Sorry, Shiro, this is not the reassuring acceptance you needed. ]

[shiro2hero]

[No it's not. And it's impossible, suddenly, to keep the threads of panic under wraps.]

(What are you talking about?)

[headinjuries]

( There was this thing that happened back home. SHIELD was using a cosmic cube to change a bunch of bad guys' memories because they couldn't be held in normal prisons. )

[shiro2hero]

[But it's not here--]

[He wants to say that. But 'cosmic' implies space which implies some kind of alien tech, which...]

[What if -- it was possible. What if those people weren't the only ones who knew how to alter memories? What if the huge holes in his memory were purposeful?]

[And what if what he'd done to save everyone wasn't even real.]

[What if what if what if what if an endless spiraling refrain cold and crystal like panicked threads and oh god what if.]

[headinjuries]

[ Uh.

Not good? ]

( Dude. You okay? )

[shiro2hero]

[Not okay. Very not okay. And part of him is registering there was a question here. But he's not home, he's gone now, and someone else is whispering in his head again -- remembered words of how he'd failed how he's not who he thinks and what if --]

[A question.]

[Answer the question.]

(I have to. I have to go.)

[headinjuries]

( That's sounding like a no. )

[shiro2hero]

(It's nothing!)

(It's fine. I -- I need to not. Be in this building.)

[headinjuries]

( Um. Okay. )

[ what just happened ]

[shiro2hero]

[Space PTSD that's what.]

(I'm sorry.)

[He can't really. Hang up. But maybe if he tries to "cut" the connection to an extent, it'll send the same message.]