mental link; whichever day is today

[shiro2hero]

[The mental voice is... hesitant. Like he's trying his best to modulate his tone, and not sure if he's speaking too loudly or too softly.]

(This has probably been a long time coming... but I have to admit. I'm not good with people in my head.) [A flicker of regret and flashing images quickly stifled.] (Or at controlling what goes through my mind. Someone here called them flashbacks. Guess that works out.)

(It's a long story.)

[So please don't ask, goes unsaid, but like a lot of things here, it's probably felt.]

(But it's been affecting others here, and for that, I'm sorry. I need to be better at this. So I'm asking for help...)

[So he doesn't accidentally overwhelm the wrong person with the wrong memory. Or panic right in front of someone.]

(And before anyone asks - the answer to 'are you okay' is ... not something I want to talk about right now. Sorry.)

[Wait, wait, crap. How does he close this. There's a flustered feeling before just... the mental image of a closed comm connection. He figures that's as good as anything.]

[For anyone who wants to talk in person, he's hauled himself back up onto the roof, bundled up into an oversized hoodie. Black, of course. Hands shoved into his pockets. Probably being all brooding-looking while inside, he's just wondering what it's like to pilot one of the vehicles he sees zooming around.]

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[adamance]

( What control I have is shaken whenever I come in contact with too many emotions I cannot control. But individually, I can help you with them. )

[In the moment, in her head, she can keep others from seeing how she feels, latching on and prying her open—but it's the push, the instability of her control, that suffers.

But individually, she has managed because of her meditation practices. It may help him come to terms with what he's lost at least, and deal with it.]

[shiro2hero]

(Individually was what I had in mind. I... don't think I could handle too many people practicing either. Not right now.)

[Maybe later. When he has better strength of shielding. Better handle of his projecting.]

[adamance]

( Then very well. There are others who can help with the other control, but I can teach you to hold it in. )

[If nothing else, there is that. The problem is holding things out, and her lessons with Cathaway never properly starting. Reaching out to someone to seek that assistance is on her list of things to do ... except for the matter of trust.

Lexa trusts few.]

[shiro2hero]

(That's my biggest concern right now, holding it in.)

[If he can manage to do that, then... there won't be any need to erase anything. Then no one will have to hurt. Or be dragged down.]

[His worst fear, as things stand now.]

[adamance]

( Then we'll see what we can manage. Perhaps we can work together on keeping things out in the process. )

[And thus negating anything that can trigger them opening up.]

[shiro2hero]

(Sounds like a plan. Let me know when you have some spare time.)

[Nothing to inconvenience anyone else, after all.]

(And thank you.)

[adamance]

( You are welcome. )