aaron paul without the swearing

[servitor]

( Since we're all supposed to be real close and buddy buddy around here, anyone care to fill me in on your skills or training?

I'm not going to drill you and ask you to run laps, I promise. Not today at least.

... Unless you're with me, then you better be on the tenth lap and not a nap )

[You know who you are.]

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[deployed]

( Why? )

[ clearly a fair question ]

[servitor]

( I like to know what I'm working with. )

[deployed]

( Good luck trying to get any one to run laps if they don't want to. )

[ do you even know how long it took him to get murphy to run laps ]

( You're better off hanging around the training wing and observing. People come and go as they please. )

[servitor]

( From what I can get, Bellamy, no one here can take a joke. I'd be stupid to think I can make anyone here run.

Good advice, though. )

[deployed]

( Most of them are capable in a fight. )

[ """"""""Capable"""""""""" ]

( Problem is we aren't always in situations where it matters whether or not you can throw a punch. Unless things go wrong. )

[servitor]

( Doesn't hurt to know who can throw that punch. )

[But already he's figured out who can heal, who can run in undetected. Everyone's got a job for something.]

[deployed]

( Gonna hurt us if we only focus on making sure everyone can throw a punch. )

[ there's some skills they can't actually train. bellamy's survived quite a few things by playing to the strengths of his team. ]

[servitor]

[He has to stop himself from saying he's been doing this for a while, he knows some things go beyond throwing the punch. People keep putting words in his mouth, or his mind, as it were, and it's starting to mildly irritate him.

Not enough to let it show. The most is, at best, a slight ripple he quells almost immediately.]

( Right now the focus is to know who can do what. If it means throwing a punch, then it's throwing a punch. If it means smooth talking, it means smooth talking. )

[He's oversimplifying, drastically, but hopefully it gets the point across.]

[deployed]

( You just dropped out of a pod, and you already know what we should all be focusing on? )

[ He's reminded briefly of Kane emerging perfectly coiffed from the foliage with the Ark guard in tow, incongruous and serenely judgmental in the aftermath of a bloody battle and worse defeat. ]

( We aren't unaware of each other. )

[servitor]

[If only Nyx had the luxury of being perfectly coiffed and emerging from any foliage that isn't flattened or burning.]

( We. Meaning all of you, and not me.

Does everyone around here like to put words in each others' mouths or does everyone just distrust each other that much? )

[Because, to be frank, he never mentioned anything about the group, at least right now. Sure, it's the end goal, but he's under no impression that he's going to make any changes or plans, especially right now. It's when it matters that he'll sort it all out.

Otherwise? They can all keep distrusting and hating each other for all he cares. He just wants to make sure things can go right and everyone gets out in one piece should the time come.

But hey, there's something to be said about being underestimated. Story of his life.]

[deployed]

( Trust is still something that has to be earned. Linking minds doesn't make it a given. )

[ There had been plenty of reason to distrust certain members of the Nest. Bellamy would like to trace that impulse back to Lexa, but he knows that it's rooted in his own motivations long before the Station. ]

[servitor]

( I'm not asking for free and unlimited, I'm just asking if you each trust each other enough to get to the end of the day. )

[Which is a clear and resounding no. He'd never trusted some of his own regiment but at least enough to know that they'd be competent enough to get his ass out of trouble if it came to it.

Anything after? Yeah, it had to be earned.]

[deployed]

( We do. And sharing stories about what we're capable of isn't how we got there. )

[ Whatever issues they've had, the baseline need for survival had covered the spread. Living in close quarters, fighting aside each other, that had all done the rest. ]

i feel bad and i'm sorry

[servitor]

[There he goes again, assuming, putting words in his mouth.]

( I'm not that "we," Bellamy, do you understand? I'm not here to get a story out everyone I want to know how I can help each person and know how to work with them. That's how I work. As a team. With actual people willing to back me up and me backing up others. The last I heard about these missions they were near critical. So don't you think it's time to get better than just barely surviving? Or do you think we should just keep going here at the same pace?

Whatever you feel like doing, I still don't know everyone here. )

[Annie was right. He's heavily considering looking only after Alnair and everyone else can deal with themselves. He'd look after the girls, the way he'd promised her, make sure Noctis gets back to where he's gotta get back to so they can make sure Eos sees another day.

But he knows he won't. At the end of the day, he knows well enough he's going to put himself on the line for even the people he truly hates.

What he doesn't mention is how severely he doesn't trust that trust. Nyx is liable to believe that at any given point someone is going to snap, turn on them, for the sake of whoever else. He's yet to be proven wrong.]

[deployed]

( You haven't been on a mission. ) [ flatly, dismissive. ] ( How you work might not be the most effective way to integrate here. I told you how a more effective way to get to form bonds with the rest of the Nest. Ignore it if you want. )

[ Bellamy's irritation is prickling beneath the statements, gaining traction as the moments pass. There's the sense of things unsaid. Overlapping memories of Kane, of the Ark, one onto the other, compounding Bellamy's exasperation. The connection stretches, then snaps as Bellamy withdraws altogether rather than risk something sensitive slipping through. ]