mental link | day: 006

[shri]

[ Her options are at this point, are brood up how much she wants to kill Damon and Elena, or get on with work. She didn't do so well at brooding, though her mind is still so new, so sharp and edged and not kept inside of herself. But in this case, a fire trying to find new kindling to keep itself going. Her own impatience and frustration are evident. But when isn't she anyway - ]

( I was informed when I arrived that we need to be ... ascertaining particular pieces of information.

Have we begun such? If not, should we not begin planning to reconnoitre? )

[ She has already plans, but even so, if it's already been done - well, she's happy to be told if it means she doesn't have to go chasing her own tail. ]

( And does anyone know how to use these - light books - that has the time to show me? It keeps flashing at me and I cannot make it stop. I think it wants something. )

[ The data pad, she means the data pad, she's grouchy at it for not! giving her! the things! she wants! Being a grandma in space is a trial. ]

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[shri]

) There is an idea to that - even if it was simply a welcoming. How often do new members arrive of our number? )

[ Tap, tap, tap go her thoughts. ]

[adamance]

( Unfortunately, there's no pattern to it. We'll have to make it something that cannot be relied upon. Hence: a ceremony of celebrating someone's growth. No one can know if a servant has succeeded or not. )

[They are revealing an unknown culture, after all.]

[shri]

( Perhaps then we should devise it to be something we can do whilst we are traveling on this pilgrimage. )

[ Set it as standard so they can all act as uniform about it as possible. ]

[adamance]

( An evening ritual of sorts, before we rest. It might even culminate in something that may give us leave to exclude ourselves from what lies ahead. )

[That is, if it runs counter to their "beliefs."]

[shri]

( You have a clever mind. )

[ Which is to say, she approves immensely. that warm brush of her own thoughts, flickering with pleasure - brief and crackling for the time being. A hearth-fire settled in deep. ]

[adamance]

( Thank you. ) [This is said just because it's required. Lexa knows she has a great mind. Egos and stuff.]

( I merely want what's best for our group. I'm not convinced that this mission is that. )

[shri]

( You've had no say in your placing? )

[ She's been told that there is no central leadership - it surprises her to find that anyone should be here without their full agreement. ]

[adamance]

( No. More to the point, we have no way of knowing much about the other Hosts out there, or any other stations. How they come across the information on the Enemy's whereabouts is also unclear.

We are sent and meant to react. We have a choice in how we react, and what paths we take, but the beginning of that journey is never a choice of our own. )

[But would they have rejected this opportunity? Lexa knows that if she had more control over matters, she wouldn't. She just would have approached it through a rather different method.]

[shri]

( Is that not all of life?

But I take your meaning. We are told simply to accept where we are sent. )

[ Is it hypocrisy to object to such when she frequently had ordered men to die? For not even half of the truth. Perhaps. But she never put anything in their heads, did she? ]

( With that in mind - I would - ask - for your help in our current state. If nothing more than the benefit of survival. )

[adamance]

( I'll offer it. Do you mean with the task ahead or in general? )

[It feels like a more personal request, but she would rather not assume on the matter.]

[shri]

( Both, I suspect. Seems there is a long road ahead of us now. )

[ and she does always, if she can help it, ask first. ]

[adamance]

( Very well. I'll have far more to say on the mission ahead soon enough. )

[Lexa always does. She has unwavering confidence in herself, whether it's founded or not. She has no choice but to have it.]

( I am Lexa. )

[shri]

( Lakshmi Bai, the Queen of Jhansi. )

[ Not said to impress, but simply what she is, really. ]

[adamance]

( A leader.

I can help you adjust in that regard, as well. )

[It's an admission to say that it hasn't always been easy having someone question her decisions so boldly, but she has adapted.

That doesn't mean she is any less certain in herself, but she's adapted that, as well.]

[shri]

[ To that she laughs with a shared understanding. ]

( That is no matter, I am well adjusted. My titles haven't meant very much for a long time. )

[adamance]

( That's fortunate. The people here don't like to listen to reason, even if it comes from a place of experience. )

[Hence the offer for adaptation.]

[shri]

( I ever prefer to act and let other people make up their mind about whether I am worth listening to by the measure of such actions. )

[ Read: she'd rather give an apology than ask for permission.

Except that she doesn't give apologies either, but still. ]

[adamance]

( I suppose I'll have to see if you're more successful than I have been. )

[Lexa doesn't ask for permission, and she's reluctant to apologize. The problem is that it's often difficult for her to discern what will frustrate people here.]