100mitsubishis: (I held things steady like too late)
joseph KAVINSKY ([personal profile] 100mitsubishis) wrote in [community profile] station722017-12-19 09:17 pm

I eat and drink and spend and fuck and never get my fill [OPEN]

CHARACTERS: [personal profile] 100mitsubishis and whomever
WHERE: the red coast, a cliff along the shore, close-ish to where listle diving would take place
WHEN: Day 26
SUMMARY: old habits die hard or not at all; once again, Joseph Kavinsky has no idea what he's doing here and decides to get high up somewhere... well. High. But feel free to post something else--totally open to wild cards!
WARNINGS: drug usage, allusions to sexual situations in main post, unsavory mental practices, casual misogyny, self-hatred thinly disguised as disgust in others, etc. etc. Kavinsky shit

[It's never been difficult for Kavinsky to find a cliff.

Admittedly, it's usually the metaphorical kind, the sort of edge one can sit at from the comfort of their furnished basement while their mother, drugged to the gills, dozes upstairs. But this time it's the physical kind with a sharp drop down to an alien sea.

There's salt in the ocean here--he can smell it carried up to him by whipping, unruly breezes--like there's salt in the ocean off the eastern coast of the US. He lived in Jersey before he moved to Virginia, both of which had access to the ocean, a great abyss that would stretch out forever to the human eye, but it was a lie, another one of reality's funny little tricks. See, the ocean had its limits, like all things in the waking, material world. He'd heard once, during one of the very few Biology classes he didn't sleep through or ditch, that a person could only see two to three miles out tops, thanks to the curvature of the earth. But even if they could see all the way around, until their gaze slid over their own back, appreciated their own ass, it was still limited.

He's been to multiple planets. He's traveled through the stars. He's met wizards and superheroes and women with secrets worth learning (novel shit, that), and it leaves him empty anyway. An infectious feeling, that he spreads among the other hosts who venture too near to him. He is the plague rat, he is patient zero of a hollowness that gapes and yawns and feeds forever.

That was why the symbiote chose him, and not King Dick or Lynch or their little peasant pet with the bad attitude. It chose the one that wouldn't be satisfied by the sci-fi version of a Thomas Kinkade piece. The view's majestic, it's beautiful, but it's a cliff. And cliffs end shortly, like Kavinsky's attention span or his ability to appreciate nature's beauty.

His old hideout wasn't in the middle of the fucking forest because he wanted to commune with the squirrels. He'd wanted privacy, so he'd found it.

There's no such thing anymore. He's part of a Nest. They're all gonna feel the smack of it when he snorts a line off the slightly trembling back of his own hand. Nobody will realize how kind he is, doing it far away from the bulk of them so that it will only be a trace in their system. Oh no, they don't get that despite himself, he's being forced to keep their best interests in mind.

Blame it on the symbiote. Blame it on his Brood. Blame it on the al-al-al-alcohol.

He almost reaches out to Elliot. He nearly calls him over, asks if he needs another hit and what he'd think about sucking dick in the open while the wind jostles their robes, but something about asking for attention feels too much like admitting need.

Kavinsky has no needs he can't satisfy. Only cravings. Like cliffs, they end.]
whereabout: to you than when you threw up on my floor (honestly i've never been more attracted)

[personal profile] whereabout 2017-12-20 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ The ocean's the wrong color.

But when Joshua doesn't want to think about - everything, that's the least of what's wrong here. Less wrong than being psychically hooked up to a bunch of strangers, definitely. Less wrong than the people, the buildings, and everything else being absolutely nothing like what he knows, sure.

The ocean just looks like blood, and blood's the one thing he's never going to get away from.

As such, he's been spending most of his time on the beach, since they landed. His own complexes are poor company, but the least he can do is not inflict them on anybody else. And realizing that somebody else is already up there almost turns him back around, but even if he was hoping for no company, one person is still better than a town full of them, he supposes.

So he doesn't turn around. There's not a ton of space on the cliff, but there's enough for him to keep a small distance as he stakes out a spot to sit, just enough to say I'm cool with ignoring each other if you are. This is fine. ]
whereabout: to you than when you threw up on my floor (honestly i've never been more attracted)

[personal profile] whereabout 2017-12-30 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ Non-attention is what Joshua's best at, so as he settles down under a convenient tree, his mental presence...doesn't bat a figurative eyelash. He's got enough on his mind; it's going to take more than that to add to it. ]

( Having company won't kill you. )

[ Said in the most bland manner possible. ]
whereabout: if i'm dead when you get home, yes, they are poisoned. (drinking a bawls.)

[personal profile] whereabout 2017-12-30 01:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ The most non-committal of mental shrugs. He wasn't really shooting for that outcome, but he's not...opposed, exactly. He hasn't had a chance to take the measure of most of these people he's now tangled up with, and that's going to have to happen sooner or later. ]

( Company, part of the scenery, take your pick. )
whereabout: if i'm dead when you get home, yes, they are poisoned. (drinking a bawls.)

[personal profile] whereabout 2017-12-30 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ Does rock paper scissors even exist in Zemuria? We just don't know.

Joshua doesn't spare it more than a blink and a brief mental what before he moves on, though. ]


( Define "hanging right." )
whereabout: if i'm dead when you get home, yes, they are poisoned. (drinking a bawls.)

[personal profile] whereabout 2018-01-04 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
( You'd still find something to do whether I brought anything or not. )

[ Because yes, he absolutely noticed that you're getting high, bro. ]
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creeps in on this

[personal profile] incinerates 2017-12-20 07:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The distances that some of them kept were deliberate, fastidious things. Lines in the sand, polite requests to not be intruded upon any more than they had already been made into unwitting intruders. Among brood, he treads water like a drowning man. Among the nest, he's in the shallows, fighting a strong tide - but there, at least, his feet are on solid ground. It's the best a newbie host can do, as he unpacks the extents and limitations of being part of a hivemind -- with the fixation and focus of a neurosurgeon and the precision of a bulldozer.

He's coming back, from the docks and the sea weavers and the fisherfolk, smelling of salt and damp as the heavy, wet edge of his green-and-copper robes drag through the dust and the dirt. A basket, full of once-lively eel-like bodies, clutched in both hands, resting across his belly as he spots ( another of them -- ) someone on the bluff. Doing -- shit, what the hell is he doing off the back of his hand? There's a pang of familiarity, like deja vu, all mingled up in that tangle of brood-shared thoughts and sensations, but he doesn't know the shape or the sound of this damn fool.

All he knows, is that, on instinct, he wants to plant his boot between his shoulderblades and shove him headlong off the cliff. It's a rising, painful urge. Just strike out, just shove. A wave of curling animosity, and deep disorientation brought on by the sudden feeling, which rolls up, over, cresting above Kavinsky's head as Bakugo pauses with his basket of alien food, a shiver along his spine, teeth clenched in restraint. ]


That's DISGUSTING.

[ He's never touched drugs before. They'd ruin his career before it even got off the ground; even the scent of cigarettes was unbearable. But, he's read up on what they do to people, how people describe "the hit", and the collision of whatever Kavinsky's just done unto himself causes a wave of nausea and loathing to grip his stomach. ( Is this really what his life is going to be like now? Distant, mental brushes with drug addicts and murderers? ) ]
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[personal profile] incinerates 2017-12-28 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Bakugo goes incandescent in his ire, a single bulb burning brighter and hotter and closer to shattering. Playing the idiot is not a way to dissuade him from his path, it's just insulting, to be given a fool's response -- as if the wave-watcher is naive to what he's doing. He shines, a veritable lighthouse of a boy against the cliffside, elbows bent and shoulders squared off against the flashy boy he wants to just --

give one good shove.

He doesn't look like much at all. ]
Do I?

[ Translation: now he means everything about you, good job. He's escalated this to the next level, like playing rage-chicken without any intention to get out of the way. ]
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[personal profile] incinerates 2017-12-29 02:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ No need to say anything, the drug use is enough of a comment on the manner of person he's squaring off with. Bakugo remembers, loosely, the middle-school kids he used to run with. A pack of halfwits, but they'd fed his ego well enough, unless they were lighting up cigarettes or nicking beer cans out of stores. Like it made them tough or something, instead of threatening his livelihood and future. ]

Yeah? Why don't you come a little closer then, put it right here, you fuck.

[ As he says it, he puts the basket of eels down. Like a knife, drawn slow and fluid from its hiding spot, he drags one of his gloves off and drops his hand low - like he's ready to take a fistful of Kavinsky -- but, judging by the way the palm of his his hand sparks and cracks with explosions, he's got his own opinions about what he'll do once he gets a hold of him. ]
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im just

[personal profile] incinerates 2018-01-02 07:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Not even.

[ Just because their Quirks are similar doesn't mean jack shit about the content of their person. He's cussed out people for doing nicotine pulls, what's this guy think he's gonna do for someone inhaling something harder. ( He can feel, at this proximity, the weird hum of what's gotta' be the drug in Kavinsky's body. It feels, just a little, like the urge-hum in Elliot. It's not a pretty picture, for him. ) ]

You think some trick lights are gonna' be on my level? Don't make me laugh.

[ If this was any other place, any other time, he'd show him just how much stronger he was. A lightshow's a lightshow, especially compared to the liquid explosion that runs inside of him, just waiting for the proper trigger. Bakugo pulls his glove back on. Fists still balled up for a slug-out fight. ]

Drugs ruin lives, you know. How about you knock that shit off and maybe I'll consider letting you be on par with this.

[ "This", being the heel of his disguise's boot. See it? He's pointing right at it. ]
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[personal profile] incinerates 2018-01-27 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ Honestly, ignoring half of the things that Bakugo snarls and yells is the best way to handle him. He's 50% bluster and 50% escalation, reading into social cues and microexpressions with the attentiveness of a guy used to seeking out what makes people lose their goddamn minds and fuck up. It's hard now, because all he has to go on are the tones in other's voices ( barely catches those -- ) and the way their brains feel when they get all chummy with his own. Right now, a brain could blister under the heat radiating off him. The absolute high-handed condescension. ]

Jeeze, don't make me explain it. It'd be like hand-holding with a stunted toddler.

[ wow ]

What the hell is DARE. It's just common sense. How're you supposed to get stronger if something like a drug is holding you back?
sizeofyourbaggage: (what're we gonna do)

mental linking this up

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-12-24 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ Kavinsky's been avoiding him.

Which is a thing that's hard not to notice, seeing as they're all mentally connected, and especially seeing as Sam's definitely aware that Kavinsky is... one of his stronger connections. Some days he wonders if Kavinsky knows that, too, knows the bond between them'd never settled after they tripped too far into each other's minds back when Sam knew even less about what he could do than now. Or at least, if it did settle, it was into something a hell of a lot deeper than it'd been before.

Not the point, or not completely the point. The point is that Sam's noticed, and kind of guesses that it has something to do with their fluctuating connection strength.

Or, shit, it could have something to do with Kavinsky being Kavinsky, or with Sam getting incredibly drunk the night of the funeral out of grief and anger, or the hollow, aching, fragmented mess that his mind's been the last four days since his broodmate went into a coma.

Sam reaches out anyway. Normally he'd wait, give Kavinsky some space, do - something that isn't press up against Kavinsky's mind, slipping in easily past the holes in his shields that Sam's used before and then pulling back out, skimming around the surface. ]
sizeofyourbaggage: (this could be bad)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-12-29 03:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ Sam doesn't lose interest, not that easy.

He gives space, when he thinks it's what the other person wants, and he takes space when it's what he needs, but he doesn't really lose interest. Not when he cares, and not when he thinks the other person is worth it.

Kavinsky's worth it, whatever the guy might think.

Of course Kavinsky snaps at him when Sam reaches out, and there's some kind of easy familiarity there, a banter to settle into - but Sam doesn't. His mind is still too empty, and there's the faint feeling of trying to balance on sand, slipping and sliding.

He's just honest, blunt and simple. ]


( Yeah, actually. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (oh that's how it is)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-12-29 07:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's no good reason that Kavinsky's response should make Sam laugh.

But it does, hoarse and brittle, and the feeling makes it across the mental link. His shields are slipshod right now, with how much he's concentrating on not reaching out to follow down the place where his broodmate should be.

It means he's a little more focused, a little more intense than he might normally be. ]


( Yeah? You know, I've seen space whales before; they're not all that fun. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (smirk)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2017-12-31 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ Sam doesn't want anything right now.

Or it's probably more accurate to say he doesn't know what the hell he wants right now. He's missed Kavinsky, wanted to check in with him - wanted to feel the brush of his mind again, to remind him that Kavinsky's still there.

Right now, talking with him like this, it's enough. Sam's not sure enough of his own mind right now to know when it won't be, when he'll push a little even though he's pretty sure Kavinsky doesn't want company right now. ]


( Yeah, they chilled with all of New York. Left a hell of a mess for us to clean up, though, they're not gonna get invited to any house parties any time soon. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (all right good point)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2018-01-21 12:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ I missed you spills out over their connection without Sam saying a thing, easy and honest.

He likes Kavinsky. The kid's a messed up little shit, maybe, but he's Sam's messed up little shit. Sam kind of hopes there might be a day where he's a little less messed up.

He figures Kavinsky will always be a little shit, of course, but Sam likes that about him.

His mind slips a little more against Kavinsky's, like fingers playing through fire too quick to get burned, sparks flickering and tugged by the wind. ]


( My broodmate's in a coma. Means things are a little more unstable right now. )
sizeofyourbaggage: (if you say so)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2018-01-21 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ Sam hasn't forgotten, either. There's very few of them that don't know what it feels like to lose a broodmate to sleep, to feel that constant, dull emptiness.

It'd been like that with Giorno and Sam Alexander - even with Parker, though he resents it. But none of them had threatened to pull Sam with him, none of them had him teetering on this strange balance and barely able to hold on.

But he knows that K still feels Black's loss, feels the faint tinge of a bitter understanding before K holds it back.

Sam's - appreciative, and his wings curl warm around K, though he doesn't draw attention to it by saying anything. ]


( Yeah? How's that? )

[ He doesn't know. Or he does - vague snippets of memory the way he usually remembers a dream that isn't a nightmare, hazy and more feeling than anything else. It's not the first time he's had a dream like that here, and if it lingers a little more, feels a little more real - he doesn't know what to make of it.

It's not something he's going to mention. How the hell do you even say hey I dreamed we were kissing, anyway? It'd only make things awkward. ]
sizeofyourbaggage: (thoughtful)

[personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage 2018-01-25 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ No, not all touch has to be about violence or sex - some things just are.

Sam doesn't try to qualify whatever connection he and Kavinsky have, it just is. He loves the jackass, but he'd never say it, never think it, never give what he feels that kind of weight. He's not sure Kavinsky even knows what love is, sometimes, he's not gonna shove it in his face.

Affection has been hard enough, it seems, but he still can't hold back the slow curl of warmth when Kavinsky doesn't try to push him away for the moment - not quite sunlight, closer to skin-warmth, like the beat of a heart.

He doesn't protest the smoking thing. Yeah, he has. With Kavinsky, as a matter of fact, that's not what his hesitation had been about. ]


( Yeah, it helps. Also helps me lose focus; you gonna help keep me here if I slip 'cause I can't hold on as tight anymore? )
isorropia: (RHAN)

[personal profile] isorropia 2017-12-30 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
[It's not easy to sneak up on another host, so it's a good thing she isn't really trying. Still-- he's preoccupied, right? Maybe Rhan wanders up to him in the fading light of the day without really being noticed until she's right there: hiking down through the tangle of shale and stone and scrub brush toward where he's camped out.]

Having fun? Hell of a view.

[She's awfully chipper - the shape of her mind as a fingerprint on glass. It's unapologetic and terribly personable. As Rhan comes down off the stone shelves toward the craggy cliff's edge, she tosses the heavy cloak section of her robes back over her shoulder and unclips a pair of bincoulars from her belt. It shouldn't be possible to look so jaunty in the Carbauschian's swaddling attire, but she's sure doing her damnedest.]
Edited 2017-12-30 02:45 (UTC)
isorropia: (RHAN)

[personal profile] isorropia 2017-12-30 06:46 am (UTC)(link)
[Please. She's extremely blah blah blah charming. Case in point:]

Oh, you know. A little of this, a little of that.

[Mostly, that rock slab just there to the right of Kavinsky seems like a perfectly fine vantage. She climbs up on the ledge of it, rubs the dust from the binocular lenses and then settles them against the eye slit of her heavy cowl.] There's all kinds of fun things happening on the beach down there. I wouldn't mind a look from a different point of view. Never know what you might spot, hmm?

[She hums, adjusting a dial on the binoculars' side.]

Having fun yet?
isorropia: (Default)

[personal profile] isorropia 2018-01-01 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
Only just? That's a damn shame.

[She speaks with the binoculars still there against her eyes, adjusting some dial on the side with one hand while the other slips casually into her tunic pocket.]

I've heard you've quite the hook up. Though I'll admit I haven't got it figured out how. Supply line all the way out here? [Rhan lowers the binoculars and quirks an eyebrow at him.] Now that's impressive.
isorropia: (RHAN)

[personal profile] isorropia 2018-01-21 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[Certainly:]

So then where and how are you getting it from?

[Look, she isn't about to let a silly little thing like pride stop her from sating her curiosity. That just seems like the height of wastfulness, doesn't it?]
isorropia: (Default)

[personal profile] isorropia 2018-02-11 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah. [It's a knowing sound.] You're one of those.

[There's an unmistakable kind of good humor and fondness in the shape of it, and though reading her expression in the heavy cloak and cowl is completely impossible, there's something in the shape of her mind and the cock of her hip under everything that somehow gives the impression of an arched eyebrow - a crooked grin.

She sets the binoculars back to her eyes, and fixes her attention back along the coast line.]


That's a very handy sort to have in the back pocket.