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[The mental voice is... hesitant. Like he's trying his best to modulate his tone, and not sure if he's speaking too loudly or too softly.]

(This has probably been a long time coming... but I have to admit. I'm not good with people in my head.) [A flicker of regret and flashing images quickly stifled.] (Or at controlling what goes through my mind. Someone here called them flashbacks. Guess that works out.)

(It's a long story.)

[So please don't ask, goes unsaid, but like a lot of things here, it's probably felt.]

(But it's been affecting others here, and for that, I'm sorry. I need to be better at this. So I'm asking for help...)

[So he doesn't accidentally overwhelm the wrong person with the wrong memory. Or panic right in front of someone.]

(And before anyone asks - the answer to 'are you okay' is ... not something I want to talk about right now. Sorry.)

[Wait, wait, crap. How does he close this. There's a flustered feeling before just... the mental image of a closed comm connection. He figures that's as good as anything.]

[For anyone who wants to talk in person, he's hauled himself back up onto the roof, bundled up into an oversized hoodie. Black, of course. Hands shoved into his pockets. Probably being all brooding-looking while inside, he's just wondering what it's like to pilot one of the vehicles he sees zooming around.]

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( What he doesn't need is something else rooting around in his head! )

("Rooting around". Is that what you think I'd do.

Only an amateur would be so careless, and I am not that.)

[He has so, so many years of torture as a testament to that, at least.]

( What I think is that you're offering to do something stupid. )

(How fortunate the decision isn't yours to make, then.)

[And with that, his attention returns to the conversation he yet maintains with Shiro, leaving Pidge to argue her case thoroughly on the opposite end.]

( Pidge, sister, Shiro can make his own choices. He deserves to know what all of his options are, you know? Even if some of them might not be all that awesome.

If you're worried, talk to him and tell him what you don't like about it. )

( Erasing your own memories isn't an option! Are you really going to tell me that I should just let my friend delete entire portions of his life? )

( Hell no. I think it's a bad idea, and I think it'd only cause things to be worse in the long run, and there's no way in hell I'd let someone in my head like that no matter how much I trusted them. But I also think that if Shiro wants to hear more about it, he should. They're his memories, he should be in control of what happens to them. Much as he can. )

( How is making yourself forget supposed to help anything? )

[ She's just... very angry and worried right now. Sorry Sam, you're getting a metaphorical earful. ]

[ She's preaching to the choir here, but Sam's the one who shoved himself into her conversation, so he'll take that earful. ]

( If we're talking long term, it's not gonna help a damn thing, and it's just gonna make things worse. Short term? ) [ And here there's a mental feeling of a shrug. ] ( There's a reason he can't remember them in the first place, and dealing with them coming back is shitty to do under the best of circumstances. I've seen people do worse things so they'd stay forgotten. )

[ Sam's apparent indifference stings, especially when it's something that feels so important to Pidge. There's a mental shuffling on her end and as best she can, she's trying to fuzz her thoughts and emotions out with a lot of mental noise. ]

( Great. So much for the "grown-ups" knowing what's best. What kind of advice is that supposed to be? )

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[ Yeah, Sam feels that, Pidge. He knows she's trying to hide her feelings from him, and he doesn't push to try to get them from her - but he does focus in on their broodlink so he's talking just to her. And lowers his shields a little to let some of the concern he's feeling for Shiro through. ]

( I'll tell you a secret, all right, half the time no one knows what they're doing, not even grown ups. It wasn't advice; it was an explanation. I haven't been where he is, but I've been somewhere similar.

You want my advice? Yelling at Ren to back off isn't gonna do much that listening to what he has to say to Shiro and then talking to Shiro about it couldn't do better. That's what I'm gonna do. )

[ Pidge doesn't really want advice right now. She wants to feel righteously angry over someone offering to erase her friend's memories. Which isn't really rational or fair to Sam, but emotions are weird things. She doesn't want to keep talking about it, so all Sam gets is a sensation of anger and frustration echoing down their brood-link. And no words. ]

[ No, it's not fair, but Sam's no stranger to the irrationality of emotions - especially when it comes to the people you care about. That doesn't mean he's gonna sit here and let her take her anger out on him, though. His own response is wordless as well, just the impression that his door is always open for her if she needs it, and then he pulls back. ]

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quietly threadjacks your threadjack sorry Pidge

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