[backdated to day 44: mental link]
[Withholding information had not been Lexa's goal, but she had wanted to thoroughly research what she could before she brought it to the rest of the Nest. For that reason, Lexa has been busy, but has been careful not to reveal what she has in hand until she's ready. Even as she prepares to speak to the Nest, she's not completely prepared, and there's a sense of agitation over this.
By now, she already knows the results of them following Ven, but they haven't yet received the information they require. Why they didn't take the opportunity is bothersome in and of itself, but there is little that she can change about that. It's about moving forward, and it's not as if she has the fullest degree of faith in the Nest. Nothing changes that.]
( Today, I'd like to speak to you all about the results of our meeting with Mind Life. The conversations we had prior to this meeting with the hacker group that privately contacted us may have been accurate on this front. ) [She deliberates revealing what she told them about their goals, but decides against it: Mind Life's desperation to remain stagnant and inactive is worrisome, to say the least.] ( They have their hearts in the right place, but not their minds. I'd say it's ironic given the name of their organization, but not surprising. They prefer passive communication over action. Their idealism may be worthwhile, but they have little help to offer because they refuse to make a show of any aggression.
As a result, our only boon from them is a list of people who they deem trustworthy. Or untrustworthy. Unsurprisingly, Saffit is on the list of unsavory individuals. She doubts that even the untrustworthy men could be behind the bombings, but we may come to see her perspective as one of denial given her unwillingness to act.
I've done the beginning search into many of the other individuals named, but I cannot be as thorough as any of our technical people. Trust that I will not be handing over this list lightly, and that the contents of it will not be available to everyone in the Nest. I would rather prevent any reactionary behavior as a result of what Sheena Frey chose to write down. ) [If anything, she refuses to share everything on the list with the Nest. She may give names, or an idea of whether or not someone is on the list, but she doesn't want any of the Hosts to set out on a crusade.
Especially when she can barely trust Sheena's judgment.]
By now, she already knows the results of them following Ven, but they haven't yet received the information they require. Why they didn't take the opportunity is bothersome in and of itself, but there is little that she can change about that. It's about moving forward, and it's not as if she has the fullest degree of faith in the Nest. Nothing changes that.]
( Today, I'd like to speak to you all about the results of our meeting with Mind Life. The conversations we had prior to this meeting with the hacker group that privately contacted us may have been accurate on this front. ) [She deliberates revealing what she told them about their goals, but decides against it: Mind Life's desperation to remain stagnant and inactive is worrisome, to say the least.] ( They have their hearts in the right place, but not their minds. I'd say it's ironic given the name of their organization, but not surprising. They prefer passive communication over action. Their idealism may be worthwhile, but they have little help to offer because they refuse to make a show of any aggression.
As a result, our only boon from them is a list of people who they deem trustworthy. Or untrustworthy. Unsurprisingly, Saffit is on the list of unsavory individuals. She doubts that even the untrustworthy men could be behind the bombings, but we may come to see her perspective as one of denial given her unwillingness to act.
I've done the beginning search into many of the other individuals named, but I cannot be as thorough as any of our technical people. Trust that I will not be handing over this list lightly, and that the contents of it will not be available to everyone in the Nest. I would rather prevent any reactionary behavior as a result of what Sheena Frey chose to write down. ) [If anything, she refuses to share everything on the list with the Nest. She may give names, or an idea of whether or not someone is on the list, but she doesn't want any of the Hosts to set out on a crusade.
Especially when she can barely trust Sheena's judgment.]
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[He doesn't care about the mission, the list, or people arguing with Lexa. He's just never shaken the habit of chiming in on something when there's an opportunity to do so.]
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There are enough lining up for that. )
[Murphy can be annoying all he wants. She could start an argument with him here, but doesn't really see the value in it.]
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( Yeah, maybe I should tell them what it's really like to be persecuted by you and your people. )
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That said, I realize Titus had cause to not mention it, but your people and my people are one and the same. )
[This is not a casual "btw I'm your boss," but she certainly took the opportunity to drop it there.]
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( Bellamy showed me some of the ruins left of Polis. Ontari never ascended.
I'm given to understand that Clarke is the new Commander in all but the permanence of being a nightblood. Clarke would never abandon her people, just as I wouldn't. )
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[It's a burst of incredulity that dims, quickly, into a bitter amusement. He can't figure out if it's delusion or naivete, hadn't expected either from her, but maybe being here had made her crazy already.]
( There weren't any of your people when she took the flame. ALIE had basically all of them, because they'd all listened to Ontari and taken chips. Clarke wasn't commander of anything. Just like you are here. )
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[The words hang in the link between them long enough.]
( But my people recognize strength. They will know what she managed to do for them, and recognize her for it. Will there be some who are reluctant? Yes, but I think they are far more willing to change than many give them credit for. )
[Including Titus. The thought of her teacher and his betrayal is still a sore point, complete with the ache of the memory of their last conversation, her provided smile as she accepted he did all that he could because he cared for her. Looking back on it, it feels foolish to have believed in him as she did.]
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But there's no point arguing that with Lexa. She's talking hope, and he knows she won't budge. Funnily enough, it's reminiscent of Clarke.]
( Yeah, forgive me if I don't believe it till I see it. )
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[Hope indeed. But it's less that she's taking after Clarke and more that she believes in Clarke's strength and ability above all else.
As Titus feared, it does blind her when it comes to reason, but not as much as it could.]
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[Though there's actually something a little funny about the fact she isn't here already, now he thinks about it. The golden girl left behind while he, Bellamy and Lexa got picked up for this.]
( Wonder how she'd feel knowing her brain isn't as bug-suitable as ours. )
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[It's a decisive answer. Lexa's own wants aren't factored in, and even if they were, she realizes that it would be the same. She would never ask someone she loved to experience this.]
( And I believe she would feel the same relief that I feel. And the same relief that you would feel knowing that someone you cared for wasn't able to be among us.
Do you have someone like that, John? )
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Dislike at the use of his first name crackles at the connection. He lets it, lets each spit of static give her a burst of Jaha, using his name, acting like it forged some link in knowing him.
It makes it easier to hide Emori.]
( If I did, I wouldn't waste time feeling relieved until I knew they were safe. )
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( And how do you know if someone is safe while we're here? )
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[Then again, he's been tortured by her people and probably questioned multiple times to make sure his answers would be the same, so ... well. Proof??]
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[It may be. It may be that spilling blood is the only way to hold on to their identities, to ensure that they aren't assimilated into the Nest against their will.]
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( Reassuring. )
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[She's well aware of her people's tendency toward torture ... and has approved of it countless times.
But he'll learn (in time, most likely) that she hasn't seen fit to torture anyone here.]
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Before you choose to interpret that as me finding someone to do it for me—I mean to use other paths to seek out information, but if we have been ripped away from our people to, say, prolong the existence of these symbiotes, I intend to reveal it. Through any means necessary. )
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[It's not the first time someone's suggested it. But since it's someone from her world, she doesn't brush it off. Lexa is genuinely curious—but there's a hint of agitation.
There's a moment of silence where he could speak, but she adds:] ( And do not count today's proceedings. ) [Her Do Not Trust list was and is remarkably short.]
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