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Sam Wilson ([personal profile] sizeofyourbaggage) wrote in [community profile] station722017-06-20 05:20 pm

mental link; day 49/50ish

[ Sam's... not normally one to use the mental link to talk to the Nest in general; he still prefers in person most of the time. But the only other option he can think of for something like this is to stick up flyers, so mental link it is. With his widened connection comes the feeling of feathers and a distance rush of wind. ]

( For those of you who don't know me - I'm Sam. I'm one of the people you can find spending half the day in the training hall. I know a lot of us have got our own training routine, but I'm looking to step outside mine a little.

Guess you could call this an interest check, see who'd be up for doing some training in working together. I know everyone ain't into the team thing and I'm not asking you to be, if you don't want to. Just looking for the willing. We're all doing missions together, it'd be nice to have some practice seeing how our skills can compliment each other.

Not gonna drop my resume on people who ain't interested, but I'll answer any questions you want about my experience. Or you can find me in the training hall every morning.
)
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|010.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-23 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
( That's just the inability to get alcohol poisoning, I can absolutely get sick from too much righteousness. Just ask Stefan.

no he will surely die if he has to deal with someone who actually likes people for too long. do you want him to die, sam? do you really hate him that much?

Every man for himself, in that case. It's natural selection at work, cupcake. )
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|019.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-23 05:55 am (UTC)(link)
( Well, both, but at the moment it's righteousness.

how can you be sure? have you been friends with misanthropes before, sam? damon suspects the answer is no.

You're not people, you're a single person. Who listens to me and doesn't think they know better than I do and doesn't run into danger with half-cocked ideas of being The One and Only True Saviour Everyone Look At How Good I Am At Being Good.

ergo, you are exempt from this distaste. because you are a delight and also damon's best friend here and he doesn't make friends with morons.

you know what that makes everyone else in this station?
)
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|057.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-23 11:10 am (UTC)(link)
( nope she just pretends. damon really does. big difference!

Tell that to my brother.

on good days, damon can admit to seeing merit in stefan's approach to the world. at the very least, it makes people like him more, certainly more than they do damon, and that means that he gets things damon never will. the girl, people's trust, something resembling a life, the list goes on. being diplomatic has gotten stefan places damon will never go, and yes, there is something to be said for that.

but this isn't a good day, and damon doesn't feel like being charitable.


There's a Good Brother and a Bad Brother in this family. I'm sure you can guess which one I am.

there's something strangely like pride colouring the words, even as there is also a small amount of shame. he'll never be good, no, but he does bad well, and that counts for something, surely.

At least you're honest. Although I'd say the recovering bit is up for debate. )
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|084.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-24 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
( this is... weird. and complicated. and not something damon really feels like dealing with right now, but he brought it up, so it's not as though he can just shut down the conversation and step back and totally ignore it. the fact of the matter is, stefan is a better person than him. why damon thinks he does the things he does is irrelevant — and even if his motives aren't always pure, for the most part they are. he does good things because he just wants to, because he's good in a way damon will never be. he can make fun of his brother and talk shit about him all he wants, but it seems wrong to give sam this skewed perception of things.

Doesn't really matter what you think. What matters is what you do.

damon can have all the regrets and guilt he wants, but if he doesn't act on it, it doesn't change anything. whatever stefan thinks, whyever he does the things he does, he does them. it's that simple.

You haven't spent a lot of time with Stefan.

you don't really know what you're talking about, sam. )
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|168.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-24 07:58 am (UTC)(link)
( this is why he used to hate the idea of the mental links. having sam projecting understanding at him is so gross it makes damon want to do something stupid just to prove him wrong — but he did that with misato, and that worked out about as well as anyone could have guessed it would go. he doesn't have the energy to throw another tantrum today, still recovering from the fight with seviilia, and he doesn't want to throw one at sam anyway. sam could take it, sure, and he probably wouldn't even be all that pissed about it, but that's the thing. he wouldn't be angry. not even if he should be.

Maybe it is. In the end it still comes down to what you do. Why and how is just flavour.

i don't do good, elena. it's not in me. echoes in his head, and no matter that the wrong person heard it, damon stands by the statement. he doesn't do good. he's selfish, and he's violent, and impulsive, and he'll protect what's his at all costs if he has to, but that's not good. if things had been different, if elena hadn't been herself, or sam hadn't been himself, they could have been just as expendable as anyone else.

he knows himself, and sometimes he thinks he's the only person who sees him clearly.
)
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|011.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-24 08:43 am (UTC)(link)
( there's a pause, and damon clearly doesn't really know how to respond to this line of questioning. he hadn't been reaching out for sam purposefully, certainly; the connection between them is always open, more so than it is for really anyone else in the nest, bar elena, but damon wanted to keep himself to himself last night. reaching for sam wasn't part of his plan.

Sure you didn't confuse me for somebody else, brother? I wasn't trying to talk last night. )
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|012.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-29 05:35 pm (UTC)(link)
( the idea that his consciousness reaches for sam without his even trying is... not really one damon knows what to do with. sam's a friend, and a close one at that, but control is such a precious commodity to damon, he's loathe to think he's lost control of even his own mental impulses. his actions, certainly, impulse control in that way has never been damon's strong suit, but control over his own mind? he's exercised that with a ruthless efficiency. he's never killed someone he didn't make a choice to kill, never been so overwhelmed by his hunger that he couldn't control himself. that control now being lost... it's not something he wants to consider.

so he doesn't.


I didn't kill Misato.

so it... kind of worked? he kicked seviilia's ass and got his own kicked, though, so... it's kind of a toss up, really. )
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|040.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-30 09:30 am (UTC)(link)
( Only most?

better to make jokes than to deal with the emotional reality of a situation, that's damon's motto.

I don't really think I'll be looking for help breathing again any time soon, but thanks, I'll keep it in mind.

he's an asshole. he knows he's an asshole, but not being one is worse than being one — admitting that he's affected by things is just going to mean they get used against him one day. not by sam, no, it's not his style, won't be even when he ends up hating damon, but sam's way further in the nest than he is. so many people, probably people damon's never even met, have access to the things that go on in there. anyone could pluck out his weaknesses, if they wanted to, and sam would be helpless to stop them. )
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (🌑|084.)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-30 07:38 pm (UTC)(link)
( What are you angling for, Sam?

the question is abrupt, tinged with frustration. he doesn't want to talk about feelings again today. he doesn't want to explain why killing misato was on his mind, why he's so worn out today, where he was last night. he wants to just... be. to separate himself from his issues and just exist, the same snarky, charming asshole he's always been. no one wants to let him do that lately, everyone wants him to feel, and even if he's accepted that he does, that doesn't mean there isn't a limit to it. )
blooded: ᴀʟʟ ɪᴄᴏɴs ʙʏ SHITHOUSE. ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ. (Default)

[personal profile] blooded 2017-06-30 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
( I don't need training. I'm a vampire. I can kill all of you without breaking a sweat.

and if he can do that to people empowered by the symbiote, imagine what he can do with normal creatures. that's not to say he won't do it, though, and the link makes that much clear. he'll play along with sam's silliness. he just wants sam to know he doesn't have to.

he doesn't say anything in response to sam's dropping the subject, but the faintest glimmer of appreciation can be felt through the link. there's a reason you're his favourite, sam.
)
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[personal profile] blooded 2017-07-01 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
( You talk about me to your boyfriends? Sugartits, I'm so touched!

the words are a joke but the sentiment... kind of isn't. any time people talk about him it's usually in terms of "what destruction has he wrought now" and that doesn't tend to make people overly excited for his presence. sam hasn't seen him be overly destructive, and it's not a surprise that he'd talk about him to his friends...

except it kind of is.


Which boytoy? Tiny one, armless one, or bird one? )
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[personal profile] blooded 2017-07-01 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
( damon only knows sam's boytoys theough mental impressions, really — bucky he's met, but he's the only one, and it wasn't enough to start a lasting friendship. sam's mental impressions of each of them are... well, if he thinks about damon in as glowing terms, damon would blush.

This'll be fun, he says, and weirdly enough... he kind of means it. Am I getting the shotgun talk or do you mean actual paces? )

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